I found a very cool blog! I like very much how she has her page set up and drop downs into categories of interest. My blogs range a full gammit of thought between psychotic rants, short stories and poetry...professional and some not so fukn professional lol! So Beyond Meds...the more I google and surf the web the more I find in the world that are anti-psychiatry. and in motion for reform.Website for Beyond Meds
I need to be more plugged in, because I could blog about my own little circle of me and continue to feel alone in the town where I grew up. But what I really need to do start finding venues to share my story. This AM I found quite a few sites that say meds do perpetuate illness...thus affirming the theory that you have to face these things and work through them. That is pretty fricking brave and I am aware there may be consequences, but I feel it is whatever God wants for my life and if I keep going insane there is some purpose in that too...I am sure since my dreams connect to my psychosis pretty much nightly that I am being taught something important. Its on the tip of my tongue but I can't quite name it yet and that is ok! All in good time, my pretty...all in good time!!!
I am having withdrawals. I am stiff and ache all over and just plain don't feel like doing much while my brain is rewiring. When I stand up I feel like I am 80. Some sites say it can take months to a year to recover from the damage anti-psychotics have done. I don't think I would have had the guts to go off, but I think if anyone felt their own face being mutilated they would probably want to cold turkey too. I still have a spasm on the left side of my mouth...I am still on two other meds and the Niacin B3, but after 20 years of anti-psychotics I want something different and I think alot of people out there do too!
Anyway I am going to take a chance on me! So far not too bad mentally, spiritually, emotionally!
I need to be more plugged in, because I could blog about my own little circle of me and continue to feel alone in the town where I grew up. But what I really need to do start finding venues to share my story. This AM I found quite a few sites that say meds do perpetuate illness...thus affirming the theory that you have to face these things and work through them. That is pretty fricking brave and I am aware there may be consequences, but I feel it is whatever God wants for my life and if I keep going insane there is some purpose in that too...I am sure since my dreams connect to my psychosis pretty much nightly that I am being taught something important. Its on the tip of my tongue but I can't quite name it yet and that is ok! All in good time, my pretty...all in good time!!!
I am having withdrawals. I am stiff and ache all over and just plain don't feel like doing much while my brain is rewiring. When I stand up I feel like I am 80. Some sites say it can take months to a year to recover from the damage anti-psychotics have done. I don't think I would have had the guts to go off, but I think if anyone felt their own face being mutilated they would probably want to cold turkey too. I still have a spasm on the left side of my mouth...I am still on two other meds and the Niacin B3, but after 20 years of anti-psychotics I want something different and I think alot of people out there do too!
Anyway I am going to take a chance on me! So far not too bad mentally, spiritually, emotionally!
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