So this is funny. I google Abilify lawsuits...I see alot of sites addressing lawsuits for "Abilify and gambling???" I think I call like a slimy lawyers office and explained to the chick that my nearsight vision, you know the one I used to see my computer screen or phone, is not working...maybe should have said "optical nerve." I have some type of disgusting mouth rot...yes lovely...and I felt like my face was being destroyed, so I stopped taking it. Now my short term memory is shot...I can't remember what people say when they are telling me they can't help me with shit! Def decided even though I am disabled no social services feel like I am worth helping. Jen said it best by letting me know I was on my own, and well I have made it three weeks with no money. And I can't get anywhere without a license replacement so Pizza Hut Delivery is out lol.
Back to the Abiify chick...so I explain tardive dyskenisia to this gal and the thrush and the eye sight issues and she is all like "did this make you gamble to excess? UM? WTF? For starters lady I am not allowed in Casinos,,,and third that is the most stupid fukn claim ever??? Like seriously I am telling you that I feel like I am in memory demensia, as in I can function in a moment but can barely remember my day? And my eyesight is damaged. And you want to know if Abilify made me gamble??? WTF again, how stupid.
Let's go to Vegas ya'all I am a lucky one! Just rub my lucky big butt and gold coins will fall out of me! Let's gamble my friends! Just donate me all your money and I shall have a gambling fiesta of a lifetime and blame it on Abilify...and get rich that way because it is obvious that I have no talent as a story teller of my truth. Just "all lies" Adam once said to me...;lol. So really though if they are paying out for gambling, I am totally down.
I get the run around on pretty much everything I do, every angle. every motion is spinning out aimlessly into the universe...and that makes me believe in my psychosis even more, That the planes and dimensions I see in Flatt are not real. They are all in opposition of what matters and what counts in this life. An upside down Empire.
I am on day 14 without Abilify...I can tell my brain is healing/rewiring because I take three hour naps and sleep all night too...at least I ain't tearing off my clothes at some lake,,,I was just skinny dipping lol, nothng else happened! LOL truly an amazing day anyway.
This post had turned for the worst...I erased some of it, honestly I was whining again about doors being shut for me...and lo and behold I got a call from my neighbor. He wants recovery and I went over there and talked and smoked a cig with him. So I explained the gist of the benefits of stopping drinking. I felt very knowledgeable and helpful. That is what it is all about! I am bringing him to a meeting friday! I hope that I do inspire some people because my road is super tough and I manage to not get dead or drink away Adam or insanity..the only way through all this is time. And time takes time. And it is all in God's timing.
My little kittens want way more attention than SheRah. and SheRah can't stand them...they like to wrestle under my feet while I am on the computer and they slept with me for my entire nap today. I hope that napping shit isn't a constant because I like to get more done in a day. And I would like my eyesight back, I need Lasik...Bristol Myers. Now Elphaba and Selah are playing inside the cat box. My little black kitties need me to be a homeowner, which I still qualify for. But I feel so discouraged in my attempts to make something of myself in this town (again)...that I want to leave it an option to move to Seattle or quite possibly an Arab nation...lol. I said I would give it til February to decide. And I guess it all depends on if the Niacin B3 works.
Let's say the Id and the Ego would stop fighting over love and death, and whats to become of all my efforts in sobriety? Wouldn't that be a true miracle? I have pretty big goals for a sister psychward chick.... maybe if I just lowered my expectations of myself to finding Netflix shows to get into? ALL DAY!!! Nah i would hate that. And I don't even have a tv hooked up right now.
And I say good evening in a Dracula voice...."Good Evening."
Back to the Abiify chick...so I explain tardive dyskenisia to this gal and the thrush and the eye sight issues and she is all like "did this make you gamble to excess? UM? WTF? For starters lady I am not allowed in Casinos,,,and third that is the most stupid fukn claim ever??? Like seriously I am telling you that I feel like I am in memory demensia, as in I can function in a moment but can barely remember my day? And my eyesight is damaged. And you want to know if Abilify made me gamble??? WTF again, how stupid.
Let's go to Vegas ya'all I am a lucky one! Just rub my lucky big butt and gold coins will fall out of me! Let's gamble my friends! Just donate me all your money and I shall have a gambling fiesta of a lifetime and blame it on Abilify...and get rich that way because it is obvious that I have no talent as a story teller of my truth. Just "all lies" Adam once said to me...;lol. So really though if they are paying out for gambling, I am totally down.
I am on day 14 without Abilify...I can tell my brain is healing/rewiring because I take three hour naps and sleep all night too...at least I ain't tearing off my clothes at some lake,,,I was just skinny dipping lol, nothng else happened! LOL truly an amazing day anyway.
This post had turned for the worst...I erased some of it, honestly I was whining again about doors being shut for me...and lo and behold I got a call from my neighbor. He wants recovery and I went over there and talked and smoked a cig with him. So I explained the gist of the benefits of stopping drinking. I felt very knowledgeable and helpful. That is what it is all about! I am bringing him to a meeting friday! I hope that I do inspire some people because my road is super tough and I manage to not get dead or drink away Adam or insanity..the only way through all this is time. And time takes time. And it is all in God's timing.
My little kittens want way more attention than SheRah. and SheRah can't stand them...they like to wrestle under my feet while I am on the computer and they slept with me for my entire nap today. I hope that napping shit isn't a constant because I like to get more done in a day. And I would like my eyesight back, I need Lasik...Bristol Myers. Now Elphaba and Selah are playing inside the cat box. My little black kitties need me to be a homeowner, which I still qualify for. But I feel so discouraged in my attempts to make something of myself in this town (again)...that I want to leave it an option to move to Seattle or quite possibly an Arab nation...lol. I said I would give it til February to decide. And I guess it all depends on if the Niacin B3 works.
Let's say the Id and the Ego would stop fighting over love and death, and whats to become of all my efforts in sobriety? Wouldn't that be a true miracle? I have pretty big goals for a sister psychward chick.... maybe if I just lowered my expectations of myself to finding Netflix shows to get into? ALL DAY!!! Nah i would hate that. And I don't even have a tv hooked up right now.
And I say good evening in a Dracula voice...."Good Evening."
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