“The Garden”
Where to begin with something like this. It was an experience beyond all I have ever
had…and I guess there was a lot that led up to it and a lot after but I just
want to share “The Garden,” for now. I
had been dropped off to my car in Huntley…I had left it there and hitchhiked
back to Billings, something I had never done before. I was sure that my car would be returned to
be as a 1960’s version blue Dodge Charger.
Pretty positive I was famous and wealthy at this point…and Rapunzel or
Alice or Dorothy…and Bella Swan as well as Game of Thrones Kaleesi. As it were…definitely really important.
So the officer that came to my house to check on me took me
out to my car…but I didn’t come right home.
It seemed like my engine had been supped…I assumed by my bro and
Masterlube Mike…lol. I went for a high
speed joy ride to places I had never been and turned on “I South 29th
Street” because Dragon is 29, so that’s where I turned. I came up on a reservoir I had never heard of…Anita
Damn. I didn’t read the signs that day but it wasn’t made for public
access! I pulled my car over and some
hillbillies had set up a camp…I bummed a cig trading Marlboro brand for another
cheaper and shot the shit for about two minutes before sitting by the water.
When I finished the smoke I took off my shoes and got in the water in my
clothes. Their three boys watched me tentatively as I began to swim in my
clothes. I was showing off because they seemingly couldn’t swim…somersaults,
sinking down with one arm in the air etc.
Its easy! Just try! I took off my
pants and shirt…and threw my $500 glasses in the water. Good bye $500 glasses…(along with half my
clothes, all my jewelry and perfume into a dumpster earlier that week….damn!)
So I swam back to my car which wasn’t far and arose from the water triumphant
in my undies and got back in my car…pretty blind. I remember I couldn’t see
very well at that point…but the rest of the day? My vision was 20/20.
So I was mud bogging on roads meant for four wheelers…um
yeah…found that out yesterday ten days later trying to get my car out. I was driving like I was on a rollercoaster
and laughing like I was Mario Andreti. And now my car is stuck knee deep in
mud, wasn’t as brave on the way out! I
think my car was magic that day…so I get to this big hill and get half way up
and don’t make it and park on the incline.
By the way this may all sound slightly sane? But let me tell you I was
not…I don’t remember at what point or exactly how in my mind but I threw my
keys and made a mother’s day shrine with a gignormous mother’s day card, I also
don’t really remember I how I ended up buck naked most of the day swimming and
walking around in the sun…but I do remember that it was. And that I had lots of energy to swim all
over the lake and I could see trees across the lake perfectly clear without
contacts or glasses. And when I got in
the lake and I was mesmerized because I could see “evolution” in the particles
and natural debri of the lake. Like the formations of life from beginning to
now…
I kept going back to this one tree. Also mind you I had been earnestly seeking
Jake Black for a week or so. Thank God
it wasn’t Adam this time in heaven or I could be headed to prision. And it was like Jake was at this lake with
me? Hiding. Playing with me. I would
think he was in the middle of the lake so I would swim out and he wouldn’t be
there, so I would pick a tree to swim toward…and this one was amazing…huge
roots and like a carved out seat and I sat there I remember hesistant to get
out because of my bare breasts…and pretended to be a mermaid waiting for my
Peter Pan. But he didn’t come and the
water got cold…and the sun on the shore looked very nice. So I crawled up almost army style naked and
warmed up. I don’t really remember at which point that I became not self
conscious of being naked only that it very much did happen through out the
day. I decided that tree I had been
sitting by in the water was “Our Tree” and the tree of life. Another time in the water I swam up to it and
got a slightly bloody nose…I let the blood run in my right hand and smeared it
on the tree. Note: I went back to the
damn ten days later and the water had subsided substantially…nothing looked the
same and certainly not as beautiful. I
couldn’t even tell my tree of life as the same tree…
I walked in the sun for awhile. Almost as soon as I started feeling sunburned
I found a sheet with flowers on it on the side of the road. I put it on like a toga. Thought I was headed to a toga party. Instead I wandered until I felt drowsy and my
feet hurt. I laid down by the water and
side of the road…and put the sheet over my head and let the sun soak in. I saw a spider on my leg…not saying I know
how but that spider made love to me for about a half hour. Very sensual. It was crawling all over me and I remember it
was like a spirit and that turned me on like I never have been before…once you’ve
had a BLACK spider you’ll never go back lol.
For reals.
So then I get up and shortly after there is a WHITE DODGE
RAM coming down the road. This couple
picks me up…and they were amazing. Tit
for tat. Gave me a black sweatshirt and
wonderwoman undies lol. Marbs. Chick was crazy like me. Opposite addictions. Gave me a black FOX hat. We were trading shit. Felt binding and loosing as they were “fishing.” I had a coke…for “cocaine” and smoked my “last cigarette” and threw the
Fox hat in the water saying good bye to Adam and picking dead Jake. I saw a miniature firefly land on my right
wrist. Beautiful.
I go up on the hill.
And this is when this happened. I
am laying on my side and my hair started turning to snakes. Jake the Snake and
I wasn’t scared. The snakes in my hair reached out to the grass…and
Like mated with it!!! Right before my
eyes as if I had microscopes in my eyes I saw a DNA sequence being formed. In a blade of grass I saw a baby giraffe, a
monkey and a panda….like these perfect tiny images in the blade of grass. And
then they flitted off in the air. I came down from the hill the “new friends”
were leaving…called me too weird and laughed…oh and they had a Toto dog named “Kassie.” I don’t remember their names but they lived
out in that area.
I started seeing snakes in everything. Not like fully live ones or I think I would
have been scared. There was a tree a
little in the water that looked “snakey” so I walked out to it and stood on it
like it was a ship. In that moment it
was a little like Pirates of the Caribbean. You know as Captain Jack Sparrow’s
shop is sinking and he is hanging on the mast.
I look up and see gold leaves in the tree like a money tree and starting
shaking it and hollering….oh yeah and on the shore was like a glass shrine of
bling I had been walking across. Like a fire pit of “booty.”
I go back to find the COKE SHRINE where I had threw the Fox
hat…this is where I lose the black sweatshirt and wonderwoman undies lol. This is where I trip for about an hour making
plants grow with my hair. I can bend
plants with my hair. But if I put it
right up to the plant it is not attracted and nothing happens. I am also uprooting and replanting “new
breads” of plants I am creating and throwing seeds. I also hear a cow mooing…for some reason this
makes think I need to fertilize what I am planting with my own breast
milk. Like actually yes I am on this
hill buck naked squeezing out my milk making plants grow right before my eyes.
I have always considered my milk poisonous from meds…and I like why would I
have it for ten years unless my body was all messed up? In fact my mother thought it stunted my son’s
development…but to plants it was pretty healthy stuff. I cannot imagine what this particular hill
scene looked like but it felt pretty fricken amazing to me…but it was getting
cold and starting to get dark.
Completely not caring how naked I was at this point I
started walking a soft path…with no clue where my car was. It was like Jake
made a path for me…if I stepped on something that hurt my feet I knew I was
going the wrong way. I would get warm
and cold, much like how the lake had been to me all day. Pockets of warmth, then chilled to the bone. So then I see a McDonald’s cup and there had
been trains going by all day and something made me think that me and Jake owned
certain brands and that this was our land I was fertilizing and that he had
gone before me to show me how to do it. Opposite steps as him and I sensed that
even my muddy foot prints were making things grow. I get to a hill and look down and see a
natural bridge. And reeds. And I go
stand in the reeds and they all bend towards me…and it was like an alter. And
the reeds were witnesses leaning into me.
To be continued…
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