Lol not a blog about weiners haha I know you were hoping I'd go there! Haha! No but I woke up with that song in my head! "I wish I was an Oscar Meier Weiner...That is what I'd really like to be... Cause if I was an Oscar Meier Weiner...Then everybody would love me!!!" Haha I always wanted to be a Weiner! Love me...Love me...Say that you love me...Fool me...Fool me...Come on an fool me! Another song for the drunk in me!
Everybody needs to love Miranda! A bottomless pit blackhole of craving was inside of me. Something only God can fill...But I of course looked to other people. I was an overachiever and all my life I had people saying how wonderful I was but I could never internalize that on my own. I needed to hear about it over and over because I never believed it for myself. Constantly praise this one or she is in doubt of her own damn skills! Nuts dude!
So I was super smart in school...Prided myself on it...But when I discovered alcohol I got really lazy and stopped caring if I was pleasing. I really see that alcohol was a way to never care about anything. Including myself! A way to say fuk the world I'm not good enough so here's what I will do about it! Strange how one can tell themselves they are not good enough when they are clearly amazing haha!
And then God made me insane. I had been four times before sobriety in 2012 but all those times I ignored it and went on my merry way like it didn't happen. Well this time it went public...Good for me lol put some hair on my chest haha! I have never gotten so many sideways comments about who I was? Like for reals! And they weren't comments I liked wtf? Me? I'm so nice why should it matter to people if I am crazy?
So I got me going on now. It's good. I don't need anybody to love me. I don't have to be a Weiner anymore! And I hope I am not hurting anybody that I write about what got me through all this which was love. I would think it to be a flattering thing what I do...What I've done? I've become a writer in sobriety which is awesome I think...Never would have known that pre writing a book! I was a young author in elementary but that was the extent of it.
So some cray cray chick writes books about a dude that gave her electricity when he passed a coin. Is this criminal? I hope not! I would hope no one would see what I have done as criminal??? I haven't contacted him though I have wanted to for three years. Yes it was April the last time I saw him at Off the Leaf.
Anyway this blog was suppose to be about weiners. And it is. I guess I must have liked his weiner!!! Lol! Ah snap! I done did it now...Off to prison I will go for liking a weiner! That's kinda funny and pathetic at the same time! They should make a "funny-pathetic" prize and I will win! Because you know I am an overachiever! Yep I would def win that shit!!!
Everybody needs to love Miranda! A bottomless pit blackhole of craving was inside of me. Something only God can fill...But I of course looked to other people. I was an overachiever and all my life I had people saying how wonderful I was but I could never internalize that on my own. I needed to hear about it over and over because I never believed it for myself. Constantly praise this one or she is in doubt of her own damn skills! Nuts dude!
So I was super smart in school...Prided myself on it...But when I discovered alcohol I got really lazy and stopped caring if I was pleasing. I really see that alcohol was a way to never care about anything. Including myself! A way to say fuk the world I'm not good enough so here's what I will do about it! Strange how one can tell themselves they are not good enough when they are clearly amazing haha!
And then God made me insane. I had been four times before sobriety in 2012 but all those times I ignored it and went on my merry way like it didn't happen. Well this time it went public...Good for me lol put some hair on my chest haha! I have never gotten so many sideways comments about who I was? Like for reals! And they weren't comments I liked wtf? Me? I'm so nice why should it matter to people if I am crazy?
So I got me going on now. It's good. I don't need anybody to love me. I don't have to be a Weiner anymore! And I hope I am not hurting anybody that I write about what got me through all this which was love. I would think it to be a flattering thing what I do...What I've done? I've become a writer in sobriety which is awesome I think...Never would have known that pre writing a book! I was a young author in elementary but that was the extent of it.
So some cray cray chick writes books about a dude that gave her electricity when he passed a coin. Is this criminal? I hope not! I would hope no one would see what I have done as criminal??? I haven't contacted him though I have wanted to for three years. Yes it was April the last time I saw him at Off the Leaf.
Anyway this blog was suppose to be about weiners. And it is. I guess I must have liked his weiner!!! Lol! Ah snap! I done did it now...Off to prison I will go for liking a weiner! That's kinda funny and pathetic at the same time! They should make a "funny-pathetic" prize and I will win! Because you know I am an overachiever! Yep I would def win that shit!!!
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