Well shizlets...On the way home from the meeting I was planning to write a poem about wanting Adam to show up at a meeting and I was gonna call it Tall and Dark 2.
But then I searched all my blogs that use the word tall...As in to find Tall and Dark the first poem I wrote a few years ago. I started reading my blogs. We've been over this! Holy shit! I really need to put up the white flag of surrender! I literally missed him in my gut tonight??? Like this sinking empty feeling. Will this ever stop??? Talk about fukn attached...It's so creepy weird.
I just wanted him to show up at the meeting. I think he needs to and that he will just show up at fifteen after and there he will be cause he doesn't like listening to the readings. Damn I am ridiculous. Like really super fukt in the head over him. Like I can see it on so many levels...I can see it from a spiritual level which sure is a obvious connection I have and then I can see it in reality and it is just pathetic! Like dammit get over it already! How frustrating for me. I remember him saying to me he didn't want to mess with my head! Lol damn well ya done did it! Opened up a huge can a psycho and it's whooping my ass! I'm not gonna claim I completely understand it...Just that it is.
Understandbly this recent "hobby" and regrouping of my obsession could in fact be that I don't have my Dragon to distract me. And I have mentioned Jake but he is very otherside. But maybe that would be a good distraction cause I'm getting worked up lately having thoughts that I should call Adam and say one of these:
Hey Trouble...What's up?
Hey Heroin...How ya doin?
Hey soul mate...Have ya missed me?
Hey weirdo...
Well I have had alot more possibilities in my head but you know I just want to be non chalant and casual like oh I wasn't sure how you felt anymore and just what's up? Like no big deal that I rang you up? Ah no really I haven't thought much of you at all, lol! And oh your still mad? Ok. ok just checking...Sorry i never finished my Boundaries book.
I would actually be speechless I am sure. It would be like Jesus coming back or something...I'd be in shock. Yes he walks on water, lol.
Well anyway I won't. Not gonna take that risk. So here I will be blogging til I'm 90 about the only dude to take my breath away. And he ain't no Tom Cruise and I ain't no Kelly Mcgillis. But it was definitely the danger zone lol.
And that was not a poem about Tall and Dark!!! Wasn't even about him in the slightest! I really don't care about the dude. Don't give a shit! He can kiss my ass. I'm out!
But then I searched all my blogs that use the word tall...As in to find Tall and Dark the first poem I wrote a few years ago. I started reading my blogs. We've been over this! Holy shit! I really need to put up the white flag of surrender! I literally missed him in my gut tonight??? Like this sinking empty feeling. Will this ever stop??? Talk about fukn attached...It's so creepy weird.
I just wanted him to show up at the meeting. I think he needs to and that he will just show up at fifteen after and there he will be cause he doesn't like listening to the readings. Damn I am ridiculous. Like really super fukt in the head over him. Like I can see it on so many levels...I can see it from a spiritual level which sure is a obvious connection I have and then I can see it in reality and it is just pathetic! Like dammit get over it already! How frustrating for me. I remember him saying to me he didn't want to mess with my head! Lol damn well ya done did it! Opened up a huge can a psycho and it's whooping my ass! I'm not gonna claim I completely understand it...Just that it is.
Understandbly this recent "hobby" and regrouping of my obsession could in fact be that I don't have my Dragon to distract me. And I have mentioned Jake but he is very otherside. But maybe that would be a good distraction cause I'm getting worked up lately having thoughts that I should call Adam and say one of these:
Hey Trouble...What's up?
Hey Heroin...How ya doin?
Hey soul mate...Have ya missed me?
Hey weirdo...
Well I have had alot more possibilities in my head but you know I just want to be non chalant and casual like oh I wasn't sure how you felt anymore and just what's up? Like no big deal that I rang you up? Ah no really I haven't thought much of you at all, lol! And oh your still mad? Ok. ok just checking...Sorry i never finished my Boundaries book.
I would actually be speechless I am sure. It would be like Jesus coming back or something...I'd be in shock. Yes he walks on water, lol.
Well anyway I won't. Not gonna take that risk. So here I will be blogging til I'm 90 about the only dude to take my breath away. And he ain't no Tom Cruise and I ain't no Kelly Mcgillis. But it was definitely the danger zone lol.
And that was not a poem about Tall and Dark!!! Wasn't even about him in the slightest! I really don't care about the dude. Don't give a shit! He can kiss my ass. I'm out!
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