So there I was in charge of a courtroom! Yep. Did that for two years. Its funny how my head would sometimes tell me different things about what was actually going on. I asked the judge who she thought SHE was to talk to ME like that? I don't remember exactly what I was thinking that day but I was full on psychotic and they sent me in a cop car to psych. I still can't believe Kolar thinks my illness "isn't that bad?" HELLO? For reals? So I did get to learn all about the system. And for some time I really wanted to advocate for the mentally ill that get caught up in the system. I also pissed in a cup five days a week like it was my job! Peeing on Broadway at the Pee Palace. I went there in all states of mind. Sometimes I thought it was a way to collect DNA. I went there in hell and yep biggest whore to ever walk down Broadway! Special. Good times in Downtown Billings!
Speaking of Dowtown Billings I also worked for Community Development of City of Billings for two years as an Americorps VISTA. Yeah I organized committees and social service events to help those in poverty in our area. Specifically homeless. I was adored. One day one stop event helped 400 people in one day and I was in charge of the whole thing! Ima go getter I guess. Really organized. The only time I remember experiencing anything weird during those two years was when I was trying to make a video of our cities homeless population. I got real fricken connected to what I was doing. I spent hours up on the rims because there are these crevices that fill with water and I wanted to do a scene of the "ripple effect" by placing a toe into the middle of the water. I was enamered with the way people can effect each other. Shortly after that day my boss pulled the plug on my project lol! And funny there was a judge on one of my committees. She later sentenced me to a felony and acted like she had never seen me? And in fact!!! None of the people that knew me then give a shit about me now. Weird.
Five years in radiology. I cross over quite a bit in the medical field. There's just something spiritual about the human body and learning about it. I would have to correct my thinking quite a bit when I would start reading to much into things. It wasn't a huge problem for me...this is when I was younger before it was so powerful. BUT! When I would do ultrasounds of babies I would see faces of angels and demons in the screen. I never could do exams over 20 weeks. It was near impossible for me to get through. I learned the entire body though...I loved anatomy and physiology. It frustrating when you don't use it you lose it. Its not something I could ever go back into anyway...although it pays so good!!! But when I am psychotic the body system is much more important to me than just day to day.
Okay this is getting long...I also worked as a realtor...barista....movie theater....now a greenhouse (what makes your garden grow) tomorrow I am helping pack up a dollhouse store! I have layaway there for like two years now and she is closing! Its gonna be like Christmas opening up things I loved and picked out two years ago lol! All I really remember is a miniature violin and case! I am pretty sure I rock the violin in ConCord...I played in elementary school but when we moved the school didn't have lessons and when I didn't play it on my own my grandparents took it away from me. They had bought it and I'd only asked my grandpa for it back for 20 years. I cry when I hear the violin! I rented one in 2013 and was learning how to play a song for Adam...but when I got arrested I missed a payment and my grandma had cosigned...and bye bye violin! BOO HOO!
That was a huge side track! Anyway yes love violin it is in my soul! Well peeps I am gonna go to a meeting! Have a good night!
Speaking of Dowtown Billings I also worked for Community Development of City of Billings for two years as an Americorps VISTA. Yeah I organized committees and social service events to help those in poverty in our area. Specifically homeless. I was adored. One day one stop event helped 400 people in one day and I was in charge of the whole thing! Ima go getter I guess. Really organized. The only time I remember experiencing anything weird during those two years was when I was trying to make a video of our cities homeless population. I got real fricken connected to what I was doing. I spent hours up on the rims because there are these crevices that fill with water and I wanted to do a scene of the "ripple effect" by placing a toe into the middle of the water. I was enamered with the way people can effect each other. Shortly after that day my boss pulled the plug on my project lol! And funny there was a judge on one of my committees. She later sentenced me to a felony and acted like she had never seen me? And in fact!!! None of the people that knew me then give a shit about me now. Weird.
Five years in radiology. I cross over quite a bit in the medical field. There's just something spiritual about the human body and learning about it. I would have to correct my thinking quite a bit when I would start reading to much into things. It wasn't a huge problem for me...this is when I was younger before it was so powerful. BUT! When I would do ultrasounds of babies I would see faces of angels and demons in the screen. I never could do exams over 20 weeks. It was near impossible for me to get through. I learned the entire body though...I loved anatomy and physiology. It frustrating when you don't use it you lose it. Its not something I could ever go back into anyway...although it pays so good!!! But when I am psychotic the body system is much more important to me than just day to day.
Okay this is getting long...I also worked as a realtor...barista....movie theater....now a greenhouse (what makes your garden grow) tomorrow I am helping pack up a dollhouse store! I have layaway there for like two years now and she is closing! Its gonna be like Christmas opening up things I loved and picked out two years ago lol! All I really remember is a miniature violin and case! I am pretty sure I rock the violin in ConCord...I played in elementary school but when we moved the school didn't have lessons and when I didn't play it on my own my grandparents took it away from me. They had bought it and I'd only asked my grandpa for it back for 20 years. I cry when I hear the violin! I rented one in 2013 and was learning how to play a song for Adam...but when I got arrested I missed a payment and my grandma had cosigned...and bye bye violin! BOO HOO!
That was a huge side track! Anyway yes love violin it is in my soul! Well peeps I am gonna go to a meeting! Have a good night!
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