Lol I love my kids! I've called them by different names in my blogs and books...but their real names are Mitchell (9) and Evan (6). Evan held my hand the whole time in the grocery store which was special and it made me feel like a queen! Then on the way home I said the word "cray" and I asked Mitchell if he knew what it meant and his said it meant "crazy." Well then I said "you know your mom is cray right?" He said "Nope, I didn't know that!" I am like that is cool beans! I make this big fricken deal over being all "cray" and my kids find me just fine! HAHA! Someday there are gonna read all my stuff and be in shock!!! Well they love me and I am plumbed tickled and not gonna press the issue!
I was thinking at the grocery store that sometimes I get freaked and think "I can't handle this!" Referring to not keeping my illness a secret anymore. I did that for sixteen years...but I was kind of forced out of the nest when I became a felony stalker! HELLO! So now I dig it...my honesty...my little world of "cray!" And since its been awhile since I have been psychotic I just really feel comfortable and happy that my emotions and thoughts I share on here are human. Just real! It feels good to not keep all that freaky stuff locked up inside of me and I really desire to understand my trips out of reality. And documenting it all has been powerful!
So I was telling my boys all about my wonderful Raposa dollhouse stuff on the way home. Was saying its like one of the best things that have ever happened to me...and Mitchell says you inherited $40 million? Um no...a house full of furniture! I really really wanted them to get excited. And when we came home I must digress they both gave a glance and I said "what don't you think it is cool?" Mitchell says "I'm not a girl mom!!!"
I really thought both my boys were gonna be girls...I just knew that when they were in the womb because I wanted a girl so bad! But I know now that God gave me little humans with boy parts for a reason! I needed to love and figure those little buggers out once and for all! I have gotten really mean and judgemental with men...probably to the point I will be an old maid...but my boys have my unconditional love! "I'm not a girl!"
My dream dude would dig my dollhouse hobby...and buy me stuff for it. Just saying. But I'm really trying not to dream of dudes it makes me "cray!' Lol. We are going to a rock climbing park in the rims. Should be fun. I'm the fun mom. I wonder what my life would look like if I had them during the week again. Its been about four years since that. I feel that mentally I could handle it now, but they are so settled in with their dad and they are all he has as far as family. I always date and pick solo artists...lil orphans have my heart! I also have grown very accustomed to my freedom and if I want to go to school in the fall (to get my fricken mind on future things, lol) I can't be trying to get my custody back. I have 25 percent right now and did that in 2013 because I was accepted into a masters program...but then thats when all the cray happened and God had other plans for me for awhile...YOU SHALL WALK THIS PATH INSTEAD MIRANDA He said with a loud booming voice!
Its all good. I turned out to be a good path for me...fantasy...delusions...and all! And I am a girl!!! And I love it!!!
I was thinking at the grocery store that sometimes I get freaked and think "I can't handle this!" Referring to not keeping my illness a secret anymore. I did that for sixteen years...but I was kind of forced out of the nest when I became a felony stalker! HELLO! So now I dig it...my honesty...my little world of "cray!" And since its been awhile since I have been psychotic I just really feel comfortable and happy that my emotions and thoughts I share on here are human. Just real! It feels good to not keep all that freaky stuff locked up inside of me and I really desire to understand my trips out of reality. And documenting it all has been powerful!
So I was telling my boys all about my wonderful Raposa dollhouse stuff on the way home. Was saying its like one of the best things that have ever happened to me...and Mitchell says you inherited $40 million? Um no...a house full of furniture! I really really wanted them to get excited. And when we came home I must digress they both gave a glance and I said "what don't you think it is cool?" Mitchell says "I'm not a girl mom!!!"
I really thought both my boys were gonna be girls...I just knew that when they were in the womb because I wanted a girl so bad! But I know now that God gave me little humans with boy parts for a reason! I needed to love and figure those little buggers out once and for all! I have gotten really mean and judgemental with men...probably to the point I will be an old maid...but my boys have my unconditional love! "I'm not a girl!"
My dream dude would dig my dollhouse hobby...and buy me stuff for it. Just saying. But I'm really trying not to dream of dudes it makes me "cray!' Lol. We are going to a rock climbing park in the rims. Should be fun. I'm the fun mom. I wonder what my life would look like if I had them during the week again. Its been about four years since that. I feel that mentally I could handle it now, but they are so settled in with their dad and they are all he has as far as family. I always date and pick solo artists...lil orphans have my heart! I also have grown very accustomed to my freedom and if I want to go to school in the fall (to get my fricken mind on future things, lol) I can't be trying to get my custody back. I have 25 percent right now and did that in 2013 because I was accepted into a masters program...but then thats when all the cray happened and God had other plans for me for awhile...YOU SHALL WALK THIS PATH INSTEAD MIRANDA He said with a loud booming voice!
Its all good. I turned out to be a good path for me...fantasy...delusions...and all! And I am a girl!!! And I love it!!!
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