I guess that's what this has all been about...Growing up. Sober. Well I can't believe this one and it's freaking me out but I don't need people anymore! I'm not needy for people!!! I used to need people to breathe Right and their opinions and approval on who I was. I am officially detached from that.
I had a hella embaressing...everyone laughing at me share tonight. The old me would have practically hyperventilated and turned red for fifteen minutes! I laughed and chilled after one second tonight. Wow!
I will have to admit this is scary because I don't connect to humans the way I used to anymore. It's a whole new way that I am relating to the world around me and it's making me think I am gonna be alone and lonely forever and that's putting me in a panic mode. I'm detaching from a security blanket and this is new territory for me...
My need for people has totally revolutionized. I better tell my mommy lol! What a trip this sober life is! I tell ya what if you are considering doing it...Take it from me with a few extra issues besides alchoholism...This growth shit is worth every headache you might have!
Damn straight!
I had a hella embaressing...everyone laughing at me share tonight. The old me would have practically hyperventilated and turned red for fifteen minutes! I laughed and chilled after one second tonight. Wow!
I will have to admit this is scary because I don't connect to humans the way I used to anymore. It's a whole new way that I am relating to the world around me and it's making me think I am gonna be alone and lonely forever and that's putting me in a panic mode. I'm detaching from a security blanket and this is new territory for me...
My need for people has totally revolutionized. I better tell my mommy lol! What a trip this sober life is! I tell ya what if you are considering doing it...Take it from me with a few extra issues besides alchoholism...This growth shit is worth every headache you might have!
Damn straight!
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