I hate having an addiction...even cigarettes are morbid to say the least. Embarrassing and deadly. I don't know how to quit and stay quit, but they make me feel like shit on a shoe...ashtrays? Yuck. I am embarressed to buy them...they are stupid expensive and deadly...did I mention that already? Sometimes when I haven't smoked for awhile I smell them and they make me gag. And then they are right back in my hand, like a damn pacifier.
Smoking can be generational, I don't think it needs to be. Please God deliver me from this smokey gag reflex, which is a noose around my neck. These little white twigs of oder make me feel like shit about me, about my situations, and about having them around my offspring. Please God I pray make me stronger than this addiction, help me fight this battle.
I remember my little bro putting a note in my cigarettes when I was a teenager. I know he meant it. Cigarettes make me weep inside. Cigarettes steal money from my children. Cigarettes make me age with less grace than alcohol, and that is saying a ton of smoke! It is time to be strong and be smoke free. Big scary court day is over...I can do this. And if I fail and smoke one, it doesn't mean just go buy a whole pack! Damn you would think they were little heroin shots or something!
I want to be done, please God help!!!
Smoking can be generational, I don't think it needs to be. Please God deliver me from this smokey gag reflex, which is a noose around my neck. These little white twigs of oder make me feel like shit about me, about my situations, and about having them around my offspring. Please God I pray make me stronger than this addiction, help me fight this battle.
I remember my little bro putting a note in my cigarettes when I was a teenager. I know he meant it. Cigarettes make me weep inside. Cigarettes steal money from my children. Cigarettes make me age with less grace than alcohol, and that is saying a ton of smoke! It is time to be strong and be smoke free. Big scary court day is over...I can do this. And if I fail and smoke one, it doesn't mean just go buy a whole pack! Damn you would think they were little heroin shots or something!
I want to be done, please God help!!!