Cardiac Arrested

My heart is not mine to give,
And never did it beat, until it was slain.
I am truly disappointed at your stature.
You hover over my pain.
And mock my solace in you,
And do absolutely nothing of the sort!
You are my pay day,
My oh my psychosis dream.
Medieval princess bride but a ghost,
A whispering shadow always approaching.
Haunt me...Arrest my heart.
Because it's all I know of love.

Wait I.
Watch I.
Delusions of grandeur.
No one is listening.
And I don't know what to do next.

I am one manic depressive biatch.