Lonely dancer, at the ballet. She's not the Black Swan, nor the right one, she says.
Oh to find my age 17 poetry. Pot crossed me over every time I smoked but I didn't know what was happening to me...I do however remember drawing my reoccurring dreams in it, which were not the 17 years of nightmares from my first psychosis on to after August 2013. Scooter says that the mind is to complicated to figure out and they haven't figures it out yet, when I told him what it was like in manic psychosis. "Scooter" is my boyfriend I guess I have finally Chosen a fake name for him. "They" he says is the medical field and scientists, but I don't agree with him one bit. I think it is all figured out. Down to the last neuron, I saw Mayor...isomers lol. If they know that pot, reacts to certain brain chemistry and causes schizophrenia, they sure know a lot about it. And probably knew about it along time ago. Just saying.
So I noticed I definently skip around on my thoughts a lot and you have to be like me to follow me and I was talking about how interesting it would be to read my high school diary. "They" said I had the IQ of a five year old that time and was never going to get better. Well hey "they" was wrong again. I got ahold of my hospital records dating from 1996 on, frankly dear Watson, they are clueless about what really goes on in my head or don't care much to delve into it or figure it out. I mean why bother just medicate! Nothing important could possibly be happening In the Universe when everyone is going insane! I wonder why there just are not enough doctors anymore?
Think it's time for some free university systems in the Upside Down States. Instead of Free Tibet, let's make it free to have a brain! And if you want to use it then it's free! And if you don't want to go school until you are 18 free then don't, you want to have a trade that doesn't require repeats from elementary for 6 more years graduate to your career of choice at 16. Free travel for good students see the world before you decide? How about a backwards retirement fund? Money funneled from old to young first?
I don't know I have so many silly ideas, but all I know is I looks real forwards to drinking when I was learning how to be non adult at 21, that's a big precious thing to wait for just like sex haha. Anyhow I am going to go take a sleeper. I could go all night on sociological ideals. I believe I see heaven and all this shitbis is probably what I see when I go there. I remember having This same stuff in my head 16 years ago in my second psychosis, its in fairytale...I ain't gonna get into it all tonight. I figure at least I can say you ain't seen nothing yet. But, fukn A I talk way too much...or write I should say and I suck at secrets. Yeah so please don't start by saying "I am gonna tell you this, but you can't tell anybody, ok??? Yeah sweetie, I don't want that kind of responsibility...we just ain't there yet if you have to ask me to not tell. I get this from young woman a lot...I don't think I have a big mouth, I just think I am probably way too honest and naive when someone else wants the inf., ho hum human.
I am weird. You know this. Awwwww Uropia where are you, my bathtub is dirty, I want to dip my toes in the sand with my heavenly body and swim with Sham Sharks! They are so nice the Sham Sharks!
Oh to find my age 17 poetry. Pot crossed me over every time I smoked but I didn't know what was happening to me...I do however remember drawing my reoccurring dreams in it, which were not the 17 years of nightmares from my first psychosis on to after August 2013. Scooter says that the mind is to complicated to figure out and they haven't figures it out yet, when I told him what it was like in manic psychosis. "Scooter" is my boyfriend I guess I have finally Chosen a fake name for him. "They" he says is the medical field and scientists, but I don't agree with him one bit. I think it is all figured out. Down to the last neuron, I saw Mayor...isomers lol. If they know that pot, reacts to certain brain chemistry and causes schizophrenia, they sure know a lot about it. And probably knew about it along time ago. Just saying.
So I noticed I definently skip around on my thoughts a lot and you have to be like me to follow me and I was talking about how interesting it would be to read my high school diary. "They" said I had the IQ of a five year old that time and was never going to get better. Well hey "they" was wrong again. I got ahold of my hospital records dating from 1996 on, frankly dear Watson, they are clueless about what really goes on in my head or don't care much to delve into it or figure it out. I mean why bother just medicate! Nothing important could possibly be happening In the Universe when everyone is going insane! I wonder why there just are not enough doctors anymore?
Think it's time for some free university systems in the Upside Down States. Instead of Free Tibet, let's make it free to have a brain! And if you want to use it then it's free! And if you don't want to go school until you are 18 free then don't, you want to have a trade that doesn't require repeats from elementary for 6 more years graduate to your career of choice at 16. Free travel for good students see the world before you decide? How about a backwards retirement fund? Money funneled from old to young first?
I don't know I have so many silly ideas, but all I know is I looks real forwards to drinking when I was learning how to be non adult at 21, that's a big precious thing to wait for just like sex haha. Anyhow I am going to go take a sleeper. I could go all night on sociological ideals. I believe I see heaven and all this shitbis is probably what I see when I go there. I remember having This same stuff in my head 16 years ago in my second psychosis, its in fairytale...I ain't gonna get into it all tonight. I figure at least I can say you ain't seen nothing yet. But, fukn A I talk way too much...or write I should say and I suck at secrets. Yeah so please don't start by saying "I am gonna tell you this, but you can't tell anybody, ok??? Yeah sweetie, I don't want that kind of responsibility...we just ain't there yet if you have to ask me to not tell. I get this from young woman a lot...I don't think I have a big mouth, I just think I am probably way too honest and naive when someone else wants the inf., ho hum human.
I am weird. You know this. Awwwww Uropia where are you, my bathtub is dirty, I want to dip my toes in the sand with my heavenly body and swim with Sham Sharks! They are so nice the Sham Sharks!