So I missed court yesterday due to feeling like crap still from that shot. I got a doctors note, but actually it was from a nurse who said "please excuse Miranda from Court she has a headache. She had a reaction to medication. " So yes I see why this wouldn't fly with the judge, A warrant was issued for my arrest. They gave me the option to come in today to see the judge, and explain the situation. I was told by the judge"that my illness is not that bad, and I am a perfectly capable person and that I should just believe in myself more." I for one am particularly glad that made it on the record! Case in point being, she hasn't lived my life and what little she knows of psychosis, she should not make such a statement. Frankly I think I have it worse than people who go all the way out of reality, and stay there. Because people just don't understand, how I can be well one day, and the next I say I am sick, or that I can't go do community service at a crisis center, because I'm going into psychosis, they don't understand the magnitude, forcing me to follow through.
Now I have mentioned before about being in court completely altered. I was thinking I was the most evil woman to ever run the earth, and that my sins would be punishable by an eternity in hell. This was mainly because I was the reason abortion was created. I felt responsible for the deaths of millions, which all linked back to what I had been writing about in my book. So I have shown up to this court over and over...in many different stages that are Inhumane, and they put me through that.
The note from the doctors office was completely disregarded, as well as the note from my doctor stating that all my dilutes for urinalysis, had been caused by the drug lithium. The main reason I was held in court for over year, was because of them not recognizing my sobriety. It is also been stated they hold me in court passed my jurisdiction, to make sure that I am stable. I told one lady-that I have had this illness since I was 18 and it comes and goes and is unpredictable. I can go five years without any problems. That's the thing of it I can be super well for quite some time and that happens again. So them keeping me in court longer because of my illness, does not make any sense.
Oh but it's not just me, I guess I am just someone that is more capable, "looking "then others that come into her court. If she had any clue what my psychosis is, or the things that happened to my mind, those words would not have come out of her mouth. At least I would hope. I think when my book comes out, people will be shocked to know what actually happens, and if I make it through all this, I am sure that I will have people from my past coming back, to say sorry… There was no way they could've known… I never talked about it, but now is my time. My hand is forced from a place that says "not that bad?" Wtf?
What would one know of having everything taken from them from something "not that bad? "
I am sure if the judge had worked for all of her degrees and career and then suddenly mental crashing down, she might think it was bad. But she really doesn't know me from Adam… Or Eve. The basic fundamental right of the human would be to say I had a horrific life-threatening experience two days ago and I am still sick and poisoned from being overdosed on medication, is that not bad? She told me you would have to be on your deathbed to miss court. I've been going for over a year… I would think there would be a certain amount of trust in place after suiting up and showing up, that I wouldn't be threatened with Jail, for having health issues.
I would like to see this court consider the whole person. In fact I believe they have never even consulted with my psychologist about where he thinks I stand, or how I am doing, that would make sense to have him part of the team? Or at least someone on the team sympathetic or empathetic to what people Who have illnesses that are not that bad? I think one trip through my psychosis detailed in a movie would give anyone nightmares for a lifetime.that's why I don't watch scary movies. I have lived them.
Now I have mentioned before about being in court completely altered. I was thinking I was the most evil woman to ever run the earth, and that my sins would be punishable by an eternity in hell. This was mainly because I was the reason abortion was created. I felt responsible for the deaths of millions, which all linked back to what I had been writing about in my book. So I have shown up to this court over and over...in many different stages that are Inhumane, and they put me through that.
The note from the doctors office was completely disregarded, as well as the note from my doctor stating that all my dilutes for urinalysis, had been caused by the drug lithium. The main reason I was held in court for over year, was because of them not recognizing my sobriety. It is also been stated they hold me in court passed my jurisdiction, to make sure that I am stable. I told one lady-that I have had this illness since I was 18 and it comes and goes and is unpredictable. I can go five years without any problems. That's the thing of it I can be super well for quite some time and that happens again. So them keeping me in court longer because of my illness, does not make any sense.
Oh but it's not just me, I guess I am just someone that is more capable, "looking "then others that come into her court. If she had any clue what my psychosis is, or the things that happened to my mind, those words would not have come out of her mouth. At least I would hope. I think when my book comes out, people will be shocked to know what actually happens, and if I make it through all this, I am sure that I will have people from my past coming back, to say sorry… There was no way they could've known… I never talked about it, but now is my time. My hand is forced from a place that says "not that bad?" Wtf?
What would one know of having everything taken from them from something "not that bad? "
I am sure if the judge had worked for all of her degrees and career and then suddenly mental crashing down, she might think it was bad. But she really doesn't know me from Adam… Or Eve. The basic fundamental right of the human would be to say I had a horrific life-threatening experience two days ago and I am still sick and poisoned from being overdosed on medication, is that not bad? She told me you would have to be on your deathbed to miss court. I've been going for over a year… I would think there would be a certain amount of trust in place after suiting up and showing up, that I wouldn't be threatened with Jail, for having health issues.
I would like to see this court consider the whole person. In fact I believe they have never even consulted with my psychologist about where he thinks I stand, or how I am doing, that would make sense to have him part of the team? Or at least someone on the team sympathetic or empathetic to what people Who have illnesses that are not that bad? I think one trip through my psychosis detailed in a movie would give anyone nightmares for a lifetime.that's why I don't watch scary movies. I have lived them.