Came across this...
One Year Marked
Valentines Day 2014
Alot has happened. Alot I havnt written about. February 11th, 2013 is the night Adam and I argued about what I was doing...that night was the last decent conversation we had in a year. There has been no give and take since then and I have been in love. On February 11th, 2014...
I was taken from jail in chains to a courtroom where he got a lifetime restraining order. I was shaking and not allowed to say much, because now I am a criminal. When everything was beautiful in heaven and all the world to eternity was watching me, there were no boundaries. He was certainly my soul mate and therefore I should have been able to contact him. Seven times. Seven charges, five possible felonies. How lucky is this girl to travel out of reality only 8 days after a restraining order.
And yes how lucky am I, anyway? How does that happen? Who has an answer? Will it ever stop? Is it evil? Is it necessary? And am I healed? My reoccuring nightmares ceased. Seventeen years of the same nightmare, and they are gone. I do remember predicting that somehow loving Adam would end my psychosis and nightmares...he was my knight in shining armor. The psychosis certainly did have a good ending this time, not the nightmare hell like the other four. I was the top princess in the realm, a warrior princess and ever so famous. What a performance I had, all eyes on me. And the story line was so beautiful that there was no fear or paranoia. Every other time I had been catanic from fear.
It really freaks me out how dates always match up with Adam. Always something to keep the story going. I cant say just coincidence. Its part of my spiritual emergence. The answer I have been looking for, something different than crazy. Something profound. I am finding others online that talk about spiritual emergence. Doctors never have answers besides take these pills and be normal.
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I wrote that year ago...there was more to it, but I want to save it for my fantasy fiction book! Adam was in my dreams every night at that time...This year I was in court on Feb 11th, did not think about it at all superstitiously, but did have a very good day in court, which surprised me.
One Year Marked
Valentines Day 2014
Alot has happened. Alot I havnt written about. February 11th, 2013 is the night Adam and I argued about what I was doing...that night was the last decent conversation we had in a year. There has been no give and take since then and I have been in love. On February 11th, 2014...
And yes how lucky am I, anyway? How does that happen? Who has an answer? Will it ever stop? Is it evil? Is it necessary? And am I healed? My reoccuring nightmares ceased. Seventeen years of the same nightmare, and they are gone. I do remember predicting that somehow loving Adam would end my psychosis and nightmares...he was my knight in shining armor. The psychosis certainly did have a good ending this time, not the nightmare hell like the other four. I was the top princess in the realm, a warrior princess and ever so famous. What a performance I had, all eyes on me. And the story line was so beautiful that there was no fear or paranoia. Every other time I had been catanic from fear.
It really freaks me out how dates always match up with Adam. Always something to keep the story going. I cant say just coincidence. Its part of my spiritual emergence. The answer I have been looking for, something different than crazy. Something profound. I am finding others online that talk about spiritual emergence. Doctors never have answers besides take these pills and be normal.
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I wrote that year ago...there was more to it, but I want to save it for my fantasy fiction book! Adam was in my dreams every night at that time...This year I was in court on Feb 11th, did not think about it at all superstitiously, but did have a very good day in court, which surprised me.